Friday, July 30, 2010
Friday, July 23, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
well
it has been a few days since i reflected on myself, so i believe now is as good a time as any.
i cannot put into words how frustrating the weather has been. i love rain storms, i wait all summer for them...and right when the promise of one comes, it just disappoints me. we have yet to have a fantastic storm. and so maybe when i am in Florida, on (crossing fingers) a day when i am not going to the parks, say on the Orlando Mall day or so, i hope i get to see the sky light up with electrostatics.
that's another thing! i am so beyond excited for vacation. to get out of this town and see some new faces. watch some fireworks from the white sand beach and eat some of the sweetest fruit you have ever tasted. i love going on vacation, i just hate saying goodbye to my cat. is that not the saddest thing you have ever heard, or what? you do not have to call me pathetic, i already know.
i have been spending some much needed time with my friends lately. i am pretty content in the knowledge that they are God's gift.
i guess that is all for now, i want to save some of this precious material for a day when i cannot think of anything else to say. hopefully i can go to IKEA soon, i really crave some sparkling pear juice.
Tschau Wiedersehen.
i cannot put into words how frustrating the weather has been. i love rain storms, i wait all summer for them...and right when the promise of one comes, it just disappoints me. we have yet to have a fantastic storm. and so maybe when i am in Florida, on (crossing fingers) a day when i am not going to the parks, say on the Orlando Mall day or so, i hope i get to see the sky light up with electrostatics.
that's another thing! i am so beyond excited for vacation. to get out of this town and see some new faces. watch some fireworks from the white sand beach and eat some of the sweetest fruit you have ever tasted. i love going on vacation, i just hate saying goodbye to my cat. is that not the saddest thing you have ever heard, or what? you do not have to call me pathetic, i already know.
i have been spending some much needed time with my friends lately. i am pretty content in the knowledge that they are God's gift.
i guess that is all for now, i want to save some of this precious material for a day when i cannot think of anything else to say. hopefully i can go to IKEA soon, i really crave some sparkling pear juice.
Tschau Wiedersehen.
Monday, July 12, 2010
titanic evening
so whenever i watch titanic i try to find some type of distraction once the water starts pouring in. it cuts the emotion for the most part, but really it doesn't. that's right, i am lying to you. i start crying as soon as people start hitting the water. there is no preventing it. but it gets me to thinking...why was i so obsessed with this movie when i was a child? was i sick or what? i was so interested in anything that had to do even the slightest with Titanic. the actual ship and otherwise. i think it explains a lot about my personality now. it helped to develop my strange sense for the sadness in history. my favorite things are the depressing things. i don't know why, but it makes the better, brighter days seem so much more special...remembering the sadness.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
tell tale heart
So this is this 100 Truths thing.
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: sierra mist
2. Last phone call: coglio
3. Last text message: since when?
4. Last song you listened to: cello music by adam hurst....THE SECRET
5. Last time you cried: today....par usuale
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: yes.
7. Been cheated on: i wouldnt call it cheating so much as a trial before...fire
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: i have no regrets
9. Lost someone special: who has not?
10. Been depressed: whenever it is not raining
11. Been drunk and threw up: that has never happened to me. and never will mind.
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Indigo
13. Royal Purple
14. the color of green that comes out in the forest after the rain
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend: i always do.
16. Fallen out of love: gotten over love....is more appropriate
17. Laughed until you cried: many times, and each one is better than the last
18. Met someone who changed you: when i think on the people that have come and gone...yes i believe so.
19. Found out who your true friends were: i am blessed to have them.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: only when they miss me.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: what list? yes. most likely.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: again, with the list...i hope i know them all if they make a "list"
23. How many kids do you want? right now? ha, 2...the nuclear family. because i am from the 50s.
24. Do you have any pets: my kitty cat....oh how i love her.
25. Do you want to change your name: to what? i hide behind no pen name
26. What did you do for your last birthday: read a book on Botticelli's art.
27. What time did you wake up: 11:00
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: watching frasier with meghan
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: tattoos. a degree in English. oh and my Florida vacation.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: before today. meaning yesterday.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i live without regret remember? everything happens in due course.
32. What are you listening to right now: cogsworth and the fan
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? i dont really know, actually. haha, myspace tom?
34. Who is getting on your nerves now: its summertime, no one should be getting on my nerves, besides immediate family.
35. Most visited webpage: google, facebook, peta2...it all ties.
36. Whats your real name: Meghann Renea Steele
37. Nicknames: Pocahontas, Meggie, meg, best fraaaaand, prime rib, KAREN
38. Relationship Status: what do you think? everything as was before.
39. Zodiac sign: virgo
40. Male or female?: femme
41. Primary School?: sandford, mcintosh, bc charles
42. Secondary School?: gildersleeve
43. High school/college?: menchkill
44. Hair colour: i am raven haired
45. Long or short: Pocahontas status
46. Height: 5'2
47. Do you have a crush on someone? are not those to remain secrets? does that answer the question?
48: What do you like about yourself? my hair? my eyes? my sarcasm...my rarity. compassion. the ability to love.
49. Piercings: my ears....
50: Tattoos: no never, i hate them. favorite trait? maybe. ASAP
51. Righty or lefty: Right
FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: i have never gone under the knife.
53. First piercing: ears
54. First best friend online: are you supposed to have those?
55. First sport you joined: people watching, constructive criticism
56. First vacation: do family reunions to West Virginia count? i was shorter than the doorknob
58. First pair of trainers: i got my first pair of moccasins when i was a year old. thats my people's version of a sneaker.
RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: Nothing.
60. Drinking: my sorrows
61. I'm about to: sleep
62. Listening to: i have already been over this
63. Waiting for: the cold fingers of sleep to caress me to dreams of winter.
YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: now?!
65. Get married?: if i met the right....
66. Career: english professor, writer, moonlighting as a tattoo artist
OPPOSITE SEX :
67. Lips or eyes: eyes, because they tell me if you are honest.
68. Hugs or kisses: depends on who you are.....haha.
69. Shorter or taller: i like to look up at the sky, but not get an aching neck if you know what i mean.
70. Older or Younger: older, but then again, it depends on how old i am.
71. Romantic or spontaneous: why not romantically spontaneous?
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: how about tattooed arms?
73. Sensitive or loud: i prefer a gentle whispering, sensitivity
74. Hook-up or relationship: hook up sounds like i am an RV or something. there is no ship like a relationship.
HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: almost
77. Drank hard liquor: unfortunately
78. Lost glasses/contact: i have never had the misfortune
79. Sex on first date: i am a lady.
80. Broken someone's heart: maybe not, i have had my fair share of heartbreak
82. Been arrested: not likely
83. Turned someone down: yes
84. Cried when someone died: i thought that was protocol to the grieving process?
85. Fallen for a friend: all of my relationships have been with former friends
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: i believe not many people understand me
88. Love at first sight: i believe in LUST at first sight, the other, should be called fate.
89. Heaven: if i couldnt believe in heaven, life would be impossible for me to appreciate.
90. Santa Claus: i believe in Saint Nikolaus
91. Kiss on the first date: why not?
92. Angels: i would not find beauty with soft breezes in still air if i could not believe in angels. whom else would protect the animals and the earth? whom else would watch over the children that have no one to love them?
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: absolutely not
95. Did you sing today?: i sing every day.
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: it is against my moral compass
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: i try not to imagine my life as it could have been, but as it can be.
98. The moment you would choose to relive?: i want to remember things the way they are, now, without alteration.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: i believe love to bring beauty to the most simple of things, you must keep love in your heart to receive love from others. i would never be afraid of love, only of love lost.
100. Are you afraid of posting this as 100 truths?: that would defeat the whole purpose would it not?
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: sierra mist
2. Last phone call: coglio
3. Last text message: since when?
4. Last song you listened to: cello music by adam hurst....THE SECRET
5. Last time you cried: today....par usuale
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: yes.
7. Been cheated on: i wouldnt call it cheating so much as a trial before...fire
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: i have no regrets
9. Lost someone special: who has not?
10. Been depressed: whenever it is not raining
11. Been drunk and threw up: that has never happened to me. and never will mind.
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Indigo
13. Royal Purple
14. the color of green that comes out in the forest after the rain
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend: i always do.
16. Fallen out of love: gotten over love....is more appropriate
17. Laughed until you cried: many times, and each one is better than the last
18. Met someone who changed you: when i think on the people that have come and gone...yes i believe so.
19. Found out who your true friends were: i am blessed to have them.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: only when they miss me.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: what list? yes. most likely.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: again, with the list...i hope i know them all if they make a "list"
23. How many kids do you want? right now? ha, 2...the nuclear family. because i am from the 50s.
24. Do you have any pets: my kitty cat....oh how i love her.
25. Do you want to change your name: to what? i hide behind no pen name
26. What did you do for your last birthday: read a book on Botticelli's art.
27. What time did you wake up: 11:00
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: watching frasier with meghan
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: tattoos. a degree in English. oh and my Florida vacation.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: before today. meaning yesterday.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i live without regret remember? everything happens in due course.
32. What are you listening to right now: cogsworth and the fan
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? i dont really know, actually. haha, myspace tom?
34. Who is getting on your nerves now: its summertime, no one should be getting on my nerves, besides immediate family.
35. Most visited webpage: google, facebook, peta2...it all ties.
36. Whats your real name: Meghann Renea Steele
37. Nicknames: Pocahontas, Meggie, meg, best fraaaaand, prime rib, KAREN
38. Relationship Status: what do you think? everything as was before.
39. Zodiac sign: virgo
40. Male or female?: femme
41. Primary School?: sandford, mcintosh, bc charles
42. Secondary School?: gildersleeve
43. High school/college?: menchkill
44. Hair colour: i am raven haired
45. Long or short: Pocahontas status
46. Height: 5'2
47. Do you have a crush on someone? are not those to remain secrets? does that answer the question?
48: What do you like about yourself? my hair? my eyes? my sarcasm...my rarity. compassion. the ability to love.
49. Piercings: my ears....
50: Tattoos: no never, i hate them. favorite trait? maybe. ASAP
51. Righty or lefty: Right
FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: i have never gone under the knife.
53. First piercing: ears
54. First best friend online: are you supposed to have those?
55. First sport you joined: people watching, constructive criticism
56. First vacation: do family reunions to West Virginia count? i was shorter than the doorknob
58. First pair of trainers: i got my first pair of moccasins when i was a year old. thats my people's version of a sneaker.
RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: Nothing.
60. Drinking: my sorrows
61. I'm about to: sleep
62. Listening to: i have already been over this
63. Waiting for: the cold fingers of sleep to caress me to dreams of winter.
YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: now?!
65. Get married?: if i met the right....
66. Career: english professor, writer, moonlighting as a tattoo artist
OPPOSITE SEX :
67. Lips or eyes: eyes, because they tell me if you are honest.
68. Hugs or kisses: depends on who you are.....haha.
69. Shorter or taller: i like to look up at the sky, but not get an aching neck if you know what i mean.
70. Older or Younger: older, but then again, it depends on how old i am.
71. Romantic or spontaneous: why not romantically spontaneous?
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: how about tattooed arms?
73. Sensitive or loud: i prefer a gentle whispering, sensitivity
74. Hook-up or relationship: hook up sounds like i am an RV or something. there is no ship like a relationship.
HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: almost
77. Drank hard liquor: unfortunately
78. Lost glasses/contact: i have never had the misfortune
79. Sex on first date: i am a lady.
80. Broken someone's heart: maybe not, i have had my fair share of heartbreak
82. Been arrested: not likely
83. Turned someone down: yes
84. Cried when someone died: i thought that was protocol to the grieving process?
85. Fallen for a friend: all of my relationships have been with former friends
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: i believe not many people understand me
88. Love at first sight: i believe in LUST at first sight, the other, should be called fate.
89. Heaven: if i couldnt believe in heaven, life would be impossible for me to appreciate.
90. Santa Claus: i believe in Saint Nikolaus
91. Kiss on the first date: why not?
92. Angels: i would not find beauty with soft breezes in still air if i could not believe in angels. whom else would protect the animals and the earth? whom else would watch over the children that have no one to love them?
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: absolutely not
95. Did you sing today?: i sing every day.
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: it is against my moral compass
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: i try not to imagine my life as it could have been, but as it can be.
98. The moment you would choose to relive?: i want to remember things the way they are, now, without alteration.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: i believe love to bring beauty to the most simple of things, you must keep love in your heart to receive love from others. i would never be afraid of love, only of love lost.
100. Are you afraid of posting this as 100 truths?: that would defeat the whole purpose would it not?
Saturday, July 3, 2010
red sam
every fourth of July i wonder how many more years i will be in this country.
i think the numbers are severely dwindling. anyway. i haven't tried the west coast yet. or Florida. maybe i will move to Orlando, and work at Disney world. i love it there...so much.
which reminds me. i will be there in just a few weeks, which means the excitement is building. i really hope this time surpasses the last on the fun scale. honestly, it would be horrible if this trip ended up being a disappointment too. i would probably kill someone. but i am not going to let that trip go down in history as worse ever like last year.
"never again is what you swore the time before."
anyway, so for now. until i find an urge to speak again,
fireworks, purple mountains, waving gang flags, rodeos, McDonald's, obesity, crayon factories, mickey mouse, NASCAR, hard rock....i guess what i am trying to say is...
Happy Birthday America.
i think the numbers are severely dwindling. anyway. i haven't tried the west coast yet. or Florida. maybe i will move to Orlando, and work at Disney world. i love it there...so much.
which reminds me. i will be there in just a few weeks, which means the excitement is building. i really hope this time surpasses the last on the fun scale. honestly, it would be horrible if this trip ended up being a disappointment too. i would probably kill someone. but i am not going to let that trip go down in history as worse ever like last year.
"never again is what you swore the time before."
anyway, so for now. until i find an urge to speak again,
fireworks, purple mountains, waving gang flags, rodeos, McDonald's, obesity, crayon factories, mickey mouse, NASCAR, hard rock....i guess what i am trying to say is...
Happy Birthday America.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
summertime and the living is easy.
i have thankfully resorted back to my primary schedule of staying awake until 2:30 in the morning and sleeping until 11:00. i believe it is the best way to enjoy life.
at any rate, I Love Lucy and peanut butter toast make an excellent wake up call, and it may not seem extraordinary to some, but it is beautiful to me. no stress, no commitment, i am living up the last moments of "summer vacation" i have left. before scary college villains whisk me away.
it is ridiculously hot outside. i find it vital to note that for the past three days, it has been hotter here than in Los Angeles. and i would much rather suffer the heat in a place that deserves it where you would expect it to feel like you are walking on the SUN, than in a place where it should never be this hot. what happened to insulation from the beach? what happened to coastal breezes and cooling nights? gone are the days my friends when you could go out and not melt your face off. and if you are going outside, it is a veritable Olympic dash from the front door to the car door in my opinion, that is, if you want to keep your skin before it bursts into flames. even in shorts and a tank i am ripping at my skull from the microwave feel outside... i think its my hair. it attracts so much sunlight, that it practically burns your fingerprints off when you touch it. if ever you kill someone, just come touch my scalp. it will probably scorch you to safety.
anyway, please know i do not condone criminal behavior, nor will i assist in any Risky Business, even if you are Tom Cruise. haha.
anyway, in other news, i was just looking at my nails. i decided to paint them a color other than clear....and now i am happy to report that they are kelly green. i bought the varnish because it was named SAN FRANCISCO, but i like to think it was a hint at emerald city. i guess if someone were to ask me what my favorite color is right now, i would say emerald.
so dear reader, until i change the color of my nail polish, have a fabulously Green Day. pwhaha. (yes, i went there)
at any rate, I Love Lucy and peanut butter toast make an excellent wake up call, and it may not seem extraordinary to some, but it is beautiful to me. no stress, no commitment, i am living up the last moments of "summer vacation" i have left. before scary college villains whisk me away.
it is ridiculously hot outside. i find it vital to note that for the past three days, it has been hotter here than in Los Angeles. and i would much rather suffer the heat in a place that deserves it where you would expect it to feel like you are walking on the SUN, than in a place where it should never be this hot. what happened to insulation from the beach? what happened to coastal breezes and cooling nights? gone are the days my friends when you could go out and not melt your face off. and if you are going outside, it is a veritable Olympic dash from the front door to the car door in my opinion, that is, if you want to keep your skin before it bursts into flames. even in shorts and a tank i am ripping at my skull from the microwave feel outside... i think its my hair. it attracts so much sunlight, that it practically burns your fingerprints off when you touch it. if ever you kill someone, just come touch my scalp. it will probably scorch you to safety.
anyway, please know i do not condone criminal behavior, nor will i assist in any Risky Business, even if you are Tom Cruise. haha.
anyway, in other news, i was just looking at my nails. i decided to paint them a color other than clear....and now i am happy to report that they are kelly green. i bought the varnish because it was named SAN FRANCISCO, but i like to think it was a hint at emerald city. i guess if someone were to ask me what my favorite color is right now, i would say emerald.
so dear reader, until i change the color of my nail polish, have a fabulously Green Day. pwhaha. (yes, i went there)
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