titanic evening

so whenever i watch titanic i try to find some type of distraction once the water starts pouring in. it cuts the emotion for the most part, but really it doesn't. that's right, i am lying to you. i start crying as soon as people start hitting the water. there is no preventing it. but it gets me to thinking...why was i so obsessed with this movie when i was a child? was i sick or what? i was so interested in anything that had to do even the slightest with Titanic. the actual ship and otherwise. i think it explains a lot about my personality now. it helped to develop my strange sense for the sadness in history. my favorite things are the depressing things. i don't know why, but it makes the better, brighter days seem so much more special...remembering the sadness.