Dead Humor

originally posted: Thursday, September 3, 2009


Its a strange thing when you get so close to one person, so close in fact that it feels like it would be impossible to be away from them, or that if they were to leave you it would be like cutting off a vital blood supply to your heart. It feels like you could never be as close to anyone else as you are to that one person, it would be inconceivable to even try to imagine yourself with someone else. It is almost painful, that closeness. And it is also exquisite. But the most shocking pain is when that person really does leave you, and you are faced with the brutal reality of having to learn to live again, on your own. And if that brutal attack on the senses was not enough on its own, soon after that they want all of thier things back, and you start to realize just how much you gave them and just how much the fact that you no longer have that connection with them is going to hurt for a long time. After that they delete your pictures from their myspace, and terminate your friend status. And a few months pass by, and by then you see the new pictures of them and thier new someone. And you are surprised. Because it doesnt hurt at all to see them happy. In fact, a slow smile creeps silently over your features. And you realize the impossible...all those tears, and all those screams, were worthless. Because life goes on, and people move on, and the heart heals itsself. And you are amazed with yourself, because you can be happy for the one person that let you down more than anyone ever has before, and your only wish is that you could tell them congratulations on their newfound happiness.

But life doesnt work that way.